singing in the rain

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knapelaa byk kali takleyh bukak?
server down ke mmg dgn aku jek ko tanak bukak
haishh
pastu xleyh upload pics n update page element plakk
and i cant even change the colour of my font!
hissh

it was raining heavily just now
raining keeps me in a gud mood, well sorta like jiwang mood..hahha!
wuteva it is the rain has stopped
and im left wif lotsa stuffs to b done
its kinda hard wen ur having flu n slightly feverish as all u wanna do is just sleep the day away doing nothing,huhu~

anyway, mbak kiki told me dis morning that pak wadi says our thesis got the grant. n he's urging us to start writing our proposal n get another 2 thesis mates since there's only me n kepam in the thesis team. anybody interested?
well, all i can do is just smile away cos i have plenty of stuffs to b done now, the thesis proposal might have to wait for next week (or likely next block - amboi sesuke hati kau jekk!!)

since im in a jiwang mood lemme post this:

Setiap orang ibarat bulan
memiliki sisi kelam,
yang tak pernah ingin ia tunjukkan pada sesiapa pun
Pun sungguh cukup bagi kita,
memandang sejuknya permukaan bulan,
pada sisi yg menghadap ke bumi.
-Rama Pratama


Nobody's perfect. Just accept people the way they are. Life is too short to fuss about imperfections..
Back to books now..=)

wut a wonderful world~

Just returned from jogging wif iman, belle, doyot, aini n tik.
Met a few people in Graha Saba like Jas, Kak Ungku, Abg Razi, Abg Rezza n oso MAS SIGIT, hehe~

Tima smsed telling dat she got accepted to work in Petrosains
Her training will begin from tomorrow to the 1st of March
So she'll be staying wif Kak Huda and its easy since Kak Huda is also working in KLCC. I bet they'll be spending more time together. Mum will seriously gonna miss her. Albeit envious, im glad dat she finally gets wut she wanted. i suppose its a good experience for her after spending almost 2 month at home babysitting n teaching tuition classes..

I just luv my frens
Suddenly i feel dat it's such a wonderful world..=)

Gear up toy..a trip to Puskesmas n assisting PBKK for tom is waiting. Not to forget 2 biochem report piling up to be done, n plz remember dat u havent started wif ur thesis proposal n studied for da neuro n ortho assistency, okey..=P
JGN NAK LUPE2 DARATAN!

I suppose another exciting week is awaiting...

My Ummah!

My ummah, my ummah
He will say
Rasulullah on that day
Even though we've strayed from him and his way

My brothers, my sisters, in Islam
Let’s struggle, work, and pray
If we are to
Bring back the glory of his way

Ya Allah ya rabbal ‘alamin
Ya rahmanu ya rahim
Ya rabbi
O Allah Lord of the Worlds
O Merciful and Beneficent
O my Lord

Let the Ummah rise again
Let us see daylight again
Once again

Let’s become whole again
Proud again
’Cause I swear with firm belief in our hearts
We can bring back the glory of our past

My ummah, my ummah
He will say
Rasulullah on that day
Even though we strayed from him and his way

Look at where we were
And look at where we are
And tell me
Is this how he’d want it to be?
Oh no! Let us bring back our glory

-Sami Yusuf

I miss the times of the prophet sallallahualaihi wassalam
I miss the glory of the great sahabahs
I wish i was there living in the victory of the ummah
and look, where i am rite now..lazing around in my own room!
God, to think that i have everything adding to my own comfort and luxuries; internet, a good home,gud frens, great family, a comfy room, medical books n all the time in the world!
N yet I am still lazing around not studying n distracted
Reflecting back on the time of Rasulullah sallallahualaihiwassalam, he faced challenges n opposition everyday!
n yet he still managed to be a leader, father, husband n an all rounder
he sacrificed his life for the sake of the ummah
just to see the rise of the ummah
n yet here we are making his efforts wasted
he had faith in us
n we shud not let the prophet down!

How grateful I am to everything
All I need is just to work hard n focus, keep away from being distracted by the whispers of shaythans..who try to manipulate us every now and then
Sacrifice, sacrifice n focus
We have everything in the world
And all the TIMES!
Look at the people in the street..
who have to work hard n toil their life away just to earn a few rupiah a day
All I need is just to focus n study..
which is NOT HARD at all!
Now pull myself together
Let's remake history
Bring back the clones of the companions- Abu Bakr, Umar , Uthman n Ali,
n the magnificent Salahuddin al Ayyubi
not to forget the Great Ibn Sina!
Make sum sacrifice, will U?
If NOT u'll alwiz b da kambing soul beneath A lion's body..huhhu!

A Morning Reflection..

Itulah yang diperbuat keimanan
Membuka mata dan hati
Menumbuhkan kepekaan
Menyirai kejelitaan, keserasian dan kesempurnaan..

Iman adalah persepsi baru terhadap alam,
apresiasi baru terhadap keindahan,
dan kehidupan di muka bumi,
di atas pentas ciptaan Allah,
sepanjang malam dan siang...

-Sayyid Quthb

..."Itulah mereka yg sedang menyusuli aku. Dan aku bersegera kepadaMu Ya Rabbi, agar engkau ridha kepadaku."
(Thaha 84)

A Tribute to my sisters..

Kak Tho,tima syg gile kat Kak Tho tau..

Akak pun..syg gile kat Tima..

If i have the chance, i'll make up everything to u..

all the wrongs that i had done to u

all those years when i had been mean to u..

I'll make it up to u in any way i could..

And I promise dat wutever happens to u,

even if ur frens despise u

or the whole world turn their back against u..

Me n Kak Huda will always be there for u..

U name it..

It was a heartwrenching moment for me

There are those moments when u feel really like breaking down n finding sumone to turn to

And a phone call home really helped to let those tears spilled away..

My younger sister tima is at home for her post SPM vacation.

Me n tima are separated by 5 years of age. Being used to be da last child made me quite a spoilt brat when i was little n a lousy elder sister as a result. When we were small I had always bullied her n had always been mean to her in any way possible. N yet she had always been dat innocent little girl,who despites all the bad treatments received, still adoring the bad elder sister. I'd remember dat whenever I was home for my boarding school vacation and was about to return to my hostel, she would always cry, afraid dat she will miss me. To think that at that time i was still a cold sister,unforgiving n egoistic. N whenever she buys sumthing, she'd always bought a similar thing for me. Recalling all those time back, i feel like weeping, reflecting how mean I was n how noble my sister was. After all the bad things that I have done! Now we're thousand miles apart, n how i miss her so..I know i had not been a good sister. I wish i cud bought back those years when i had been bad to her. Alhamdulillah, we relinquished the ties n became super close when I was growing older. But how i wish i cud return to the past n be a better sister! But i noe i cudn't. I just pray dat i cud make it up to her in ayway i can. When she was in MRSM i'd supported her all da way. N now she's my best friend. She's that cute, funky, funny sister everyone wud luv to have. We'd joke about anything n make up stupid dramas manipulating every day scenario. People say we look and behave alike but i believe dat she is prettier n funnier=). May Allah bless u dearest sis, n may u get wat u want in dis life n da hereafter, a future actuarial scientist, insyaAllah!

My elder sister, Kak Huda is a very special person (to me).Whenever people ask me about her, I'd say dat she's da best sister in da whole world! I remember dat when i was small, she'd always protected me n i'd always look up to her in everything i do. coz i was so spoilt n timid! As I grew up, she'd been my idol n i'd always wanted to be like her. That's how obsessed a sister cud get! Kak Huda is an all rounder and talented in everything she does. She cud try her hands at everything, u name it - cooking, acting,singing,managing n even any sports- squash, ping pong,netball,volleyball,even silat (hehheh!) n become good at them. She's also damn funny n a drama queen! She's so spontaneous n nobody cud resist being in her company.At one time she's a leader, the other she's da joker! Wut make her so special is dat she is so selfless n never fails to put other people's priority before her very own. She would sacrifice everything for the family! My mum alwiz says dat she's a rare species and she really is .I'd alwiz admired her n will alwiz be..I know life would change when she gets married but she alwiz says dat i'll alwiz be her baby sis. She's so sweet..;) N i noe i'll alwiz be..

My sisters are one of the blessings in my life that I know i cud neva thank Allah enough. To everyone, siblings are the gift from Allah to show how Ar Rahim He is..Appreciate them before its too late..=)

To both of my sisters..

Thank u for being der when nobody else seems to care

Thank u for the memories we shared

Thank u for the love, trust n faith u both have in me

May Allah makes us sisters not just by blood but also by the strong bond of imaan to Him..

This poem is taken from the bookmark Kak Huda gave to me. And she says 'I really mean it'..=)

..me,tima n kak huda..

What is a sister?

A sister is someone more special than words

She is love mixed with friendship,the best things in life

She is so much inner beauty blended together with an outward appearance that brings a smile to your heart

Together you've shared some very special moments

She is a perspective on the past and a million favourite memories that will always last

A sister is a hand within your hand,she's often the one only one who understands

She is honesty and trust enfolded with love

She is a helper, a guide, and a feeling deep inside that makes u wonder what u would do without her.

In so many ways no one is ever loved so dearly...

-Douglas Pagels

whatever u do, do it Ur Way..

i've been having dis thought lingering on my head waiting to be written down since last evening. Meanwhile, speaking bout my weken, embarrassingly i have to be honest dat i DIDN'T manage to get anything done from the have-to-be-done checklist jotted down in the previous entry. huhhu, sadistic isn't it? wut have i been doin' wif my weken? well, last nite we, the housemates, went to SEKATEN near Kraton wer a month long once in a year funfair n pasar sore was held. The trip was an interesting one in which the story cud be told sum other day.

Apart from dat, i got a visit from my 'so called' 16 yer old adek angkat, dian from bantul dis morning. How did i get to know her? That is also a lengthy story which has to be told maybe sum other day. But she stayed wif me till da eve wer i assisted her wif her english homework, took her to taruna for da routine sunday tafsir pengajian n oso jogging wif da stooges,hehheh(sempat lg tuh!). She returned home afterwards. Not to forget tonite was also spent by celebrating february mates besday bash which went off a blast! thanx everyone.. =)

mb anis, dian (pink blouse), me(montel mood) n nadzirah during one of da bantul trips. This was the temporary TPA (tmn pengajian alqur'an) after da quake

So, basically that was how i spent my weken. Anyhow i shud get the credit for being able to finish 2 PA drawings, at least..=)

Well, back to the main topic. In this world, wherever u go, watever u do, there is just too many great people around u. They're very excellent in wut they're doing n seem to be so sure of wut they are up to. Sometimes that'll make u feel intimidated n start to self doubt. Well, dont be. U just have to find ur own self worth in ur own way. Comparing urself to others will only make ur self esteem depleted till u start becoming uncontented wif wut u have. God creates u for purposes n He always listens n guides u along the way. Now its time to find ur own true happiness n just do watever u want, and improvise it 'Ur Way'. People are unique. They come in all shapes n sizes. So there's got to be ways.Not just 'a way'.As long as it is still not deviating from Allah's way. My mum always says to me 'wutever u do, differentiate urself from others n dare to be different'. That's the most precious advice ever mum..So from now on start to embark on journey to find ur own ways, till u find ur own true self.

There are the times that u feel dat u've lost urself, n u miss ur 'old self' when everything was going on so well wif ur life! Lost and found are the norms of life, so just be patient, work out of the mess ur own way n stop reminiscing the old moments. Just live for the moment as best as u can.Find the company of the ones u cud confide and find comfort in. Get as much love and support as u can throughout the way.

I'm still trying to find my own true self along this way. And i'm still adapting to this teen becoming adult transition phase. But i'm learning n mending, it's neverending. And i know that i'll be just fine, sooner or later with His guidance insyaAllah...

Never bend your head.
Always hold it high.
Look the world straight in the face.

There will never be another now

I'll make the most of today.

There will never be another me

I'll make the most of myself.

-Helen Keller

can i break n away?

i spread my wings and i learn how to fly
i'll do wut it takes till i touch the sky
make a wish
take a chance
make a change
n BREAKAWAY...

waaa~now ngah rs nk breakaway jek..
herm byk keje.
n takde duit (akibat sudah habis byr duit sewa rumah..huu).
here is my 'in the current moment workload' (bear with me..hehheh) :
-PA drawings
-thesis proposal
-stadi neuro n ortho for asistency
-organisational reports (becoming)

n oso if da jakarta pkp meeting is for real on 8 mac (betul ke aku dgr ni), which is b4 blok 16 xms (yesss) hv to start stadying sesikit lecture notes frm nowla..no last2 minet stadi.Plus the assistency loads that i have to do during the exam week itself

no worriesla~chill out n gear up..still plenty of time ahead..

well yeah tomoroe insyaAllah we'll b having this 'february besday bash! ' for our beloved february besdays batchmates..

venue : Pizza hut Jln Tugu
time : 7pm
theme: jeans! n for besday gals n boy anything wif ReD!
-n oso Go dutch..hehhe..

all 2005 batchmates are invited...marilah mengkompakkan lg majlis..sile2..

A Silent Morning Prayer

O Allah,
I pray to U,
keep my path within Ur way,
do not let me go astray,
keep my mind in full focus,
towards finding Ur Redha,
give me the khusyuk,
in every little thing i do,
make things easy for me,
grant me happiness, love and tranquility,
gives me ur abundant blessing n rizq,
n make me a grateful slave..

thots,
me

An evening Jog

As planned earlier,me,iman n azra,the three stooges went for a 'so called jog' in Graha Saba. N sumone was looking for pisang aroma so we cruised our way up to a stall till we reached lembah fitness centre. Oh,its lembah.come n usha tennis court. Guess who we saw?Andrias andriawan, a fellow classmate practising tenis wif his coach.heheh.Bestnyee main tennis!..act we've been having dis eye on TENNIS since a few weeks earlier.but just mere talks la..but apparently now we're really getting all excited n considering to take it seriously..hehheh~let's see whether dis is just hangat2 tahi ayam or wut..

heyya!~

yes..im bak! kinda miss writing..(well, sort of).gotta polish my broken down brokeback mountain english(huh..apekah??).hahha. a tribute to mr you-know-who-u-are for bringing me back in da blogging world n oso helping me to refresh my long lost memory bout blogging tech.hehheh!hidup mr KURT! cheesee...dat's all for now..will b bak later..hehhe! im still in campus eniwey..=)