the one day will end journey

There are times when u feel at lost n trying to find urself

This is one of those times.

Im trying to find myself
who tahira a.k.a toy really is,hoho

cos sumtimes ur lost between who u really are n who u wanna be.
when i curhat to azra bout it she says everybody feels so
yes, i suppose..

herm neway, lets hope dat dis mistaken-identity-crisis dun gets in the way cos block xm is one week away!!
with tonnes of stuffs to b done (yeah u've heard dis million times already yet the workload don seem to get any lesser-dats life). neway still, i do love my job, assisting compre test n teaching the juniors. i do learn A LOT.
seeing people clad in lab coats performing skills-groggy n nervous like nobody cares n knowing dat one day soon u'll be in their shoes sure gv u sum keinsafan to stadi hard-yes, i hope so. two things i just learnt yesterday - unprepared people tends to babble A LOT more compared to the well prepared ones. well, sort of, most of them. perhaps its true. as belle's saying goes (hey hey belle ingat tak ape peribahasa yg ko gtau aku tuh?hehhe). n oso one incident with a 'sumone' dat makeS me realize dat GOD is just. wut humiliation dat u've done to people will counterback u later n get u humiliated in return. huhhu. i've seen them. really2 please, neva do other people wrongs or 'ada hasad dengki' cos Lord is ever seeing n JUST. Hukum karma really works here. Like Leo Tolstoy's saying- Tuhan tahu tapi menunggu- oh, i love dis saying =P . Marilah bersame2 menjauhi hasad dengki. yeah~

anyhow, im currently on-the-way reading 'Tunggu Teduh Dulu' a novel by Faisal Tehrani. it's basically bout the struggle n perjuangan of a Muslimah named Salsabila Fahim and the search of self, god n life meaning plus the interpretation of wut is actually in store behind every destiny. i suppose it suits my 'lost identity' mood now.heh he he. Here's sum lines dat i love in da book :

Kata Teh Sofia,
ya, kerja Tuhan siapa tahu?

Kata aku,
Tuhan akan menunjukkan kepada yang mencari.
Ya, asal kau mahu mencari, Dia menunjukkan.
Apa kata kau?

Happy burfday to beloved baby bro, ecad- who turns 13 today. Kak Tho loves u =). cepat grow up n be a handsome n reliable young muslim man!

n not to forget, 2 of the important person in my life- my cutest mum who turned sweet 46 last 1st march n beloved housemate miss azra who turned 23 last february 27. actually i planned special entries for these two occasion, but as usual, blogger.com didn't make life easy for me. hah ha. mybe nxt time. all da best oso for mr kurt -jogja future bestselling equestrian (hehhe) in his open horseriding tournament in bandung. way da go mr darcy!!dis is even betta than the taylor's college students!! (haha u noe wut i mean =P)

will be meeting pak wadi at one in sarjito today. now phak hsia n cek ning is joining our thesis team. welkam to the team..ngeee (",)