Thursday, October 30, 2008

di saat ruh itu sepi

di saat ruh itu rasa sunyi..
di ketika pengabdian sebenar tulus pada Tuhan diganti spiritual engineerings,
rekayasa manusia untuk berpura-pura dirinya dekat pada Pencipta..
di waktu hari2 diisi futile, meaningless conversations,..routine dan mundane acts..
di kala blank spaces mengisi rongga2 jiwa di antara sela waktu;

.:Tuhan kurniakan teman untuk mengingatkan..

‘Teman yang paling baik adalah apabila kamu melihat wajahnya, kamu teringat akan Allah, mendengar kata-katanya menambahkan ilmu agama, melihat gerak-gerinya teringat mati..’

dan benar, kata2 yang baik dari teman yang mengingatkan itu tidak ternilai harganya berbanding dunia dan seisinya:-

(taken from naufa's email content..)

apa guna bacaan quran bersama tafsir andai tidak terasa dgn hati..
Dan apabila dibacakan al-Quran, maka dengarkanlah baik-baik dan perhatikanlah dengan tenang agar kamu mendapat rahmat. (Surah al-A'raaf, ayat 204)]

apa guna duduk bangun dlm solat andai dosa masih dihampiri..
[innastholatatanha 'anil fahsya'i wal mungkar
- “Sesungguhnya solat dapat mencegah seseorang dari perbuatan keji dan mungkar.”(Surah Al-Ankabuut: 45) ]

apa guna anggota amanah ALLAH andai sentiasa dlm leka..

apa guna cinta andai kpd pencipta hanya bersahaja..

apa guna ukhuwah andai bukan untuk memperingatkan..

apa guna maghfirahNya andai taubat ditinggalkan..

sungguh benar kita kerap menghabiskan emosi dengan manusia yang akhirnya menyakitkan..
sungguh benar pula kita sentiasa menjadikan alasan 'manusia itu pelupa' untuk tidak mengingatiNya..

...jazakillah adik naufa ;)

(I'll be counting the days for u to come)

"Kelazatan di dunia ini tinggal tersisa 3 perkara; qiyamullail, bertemu dengan saudara seiman dan shalat jemaah" - Ibnul Munkadir

"Aku sempat bertemu dengan beberapa kaum dan kelompok. Mereka ini tidak pernah bersuka cita atas melimpahnya dunia. Pun, tidak pernah berduka cita atas hilangnya dunia. Di mata mereka, kekayaan dunia itu ibarat tanah."- Hassan Al- Bashri

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

the remedy for the insomniacs

my early sleeping routine is disturbed tonite. i'm declaring myself an insomniac! and the remedy- is going on a food binge-wif cek pah's wonderful brownies kukus (ehehe..tikus curi food kat dapor). tq cek pah for cooking lovely dishes it..(siap tambah 3 x..kuang2)..luv u too dearie..owez..hehhe (overrr)..

the remedy for the heart
quoting a saying from one of my friend as a constant reminder for us as a servant to God, our lives need to be filled continously with tarbiyyah n mutaba'ah amal. it's not just about us, having to take care and pay heed over our ibadah, but the ibaadah in return will act as a shield in putting our lives under His care, completely. this is very vital, in order so that we won't take our ibaadah for granted cos what we've performed will be questioned in the hereafter later. Therefore, let's make effort to improve the quality of our ibadaah especially our SOLAT, bit by bit, ceaselessly without fail..

A humble reminder from me yet sincerely (insyaAllah)
Sampaikan dariku walau satu ayaat..

Sunday, October 26, 2008


adalah sifat semulajadi seorg hamba..kdg2 org2 yg baik pun boleh lalai..

kdg2 utk tidak lalai manusia memerlukan kekuatan..dan kekuatan itu boleh dtg dgn pelbagai'ah yg baik..solat malam..dan org2 sekeliling yg memberi inspirasi dan mentransmisi kekuatan..

oleh itu sentiasalah saling mengingatkan, kerana lalai itu mmg sifat fitrah hamba dan utk sentiasa beringat itu kita kena melawan arus hawa nafsu diri kita yg cenderung pada kelalaian ni..berterima kasihlah kepada Allah yg selalu mengejutkan kita dr kelalaian..sbb Allah masih syg kat kita..

"Hai orang yang berselimut, bangunlah lalu berilah peringatan" (Al-Muddatsir 1-2)

Ingatkanlah diriku wahai temanku jika kau kasihkan diriku kerana Allah...

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

leaving home

today is another day yet today is of a different one cos today i'll be leaving home..

the short embrace n cheek kisses from my bro wud be the last one, when he'll be back from school, my voice will no longer echo the house n my physique will no more to be found lingering around

a deep sorrow is encarved inside this chest of mine but mum says that i've taken this journey of medicine and embarked on it..n therefore i must complete it..

mum says that life is always fair-what u give, u'll get back- a lot more even! n wut Allah gives to others but not u is always replaced by something else that u may have but others don't conclude-everyone is strong and lucky-just that people have different strengths n lucks-to show that his Love and Majesty is so abundant- enough and it encompasses every one =)

and i suppose the whole conversation with my mum meant to mean:,

when the roads are tough
and the deep hollow of self doubt, self denial n self hating conjures
it takes a courage that should be mustered to conquer them

and my home, my sanctuary
has prepared me for whatever it takes
n will always welcome me in whatever condition i'll be in. always.

can't tell how much my love for my family is. i hope i've had done more for them~

p/s:al-fatihah n my greatest condolence to my dearest good buddy, tasha for her granddad demise. innalillahiwa inna ilaihi raji'un..smoga roh arwah atuk tasha ditempatkan dlm golongan org2 yg soleh.. aminn

i'm sure husna will be crying hard-wanting to follow me-kesian de.siap kumpul duet raye nk beli duet tiket flite ikut balik indo. so naive n innocent ;) -i'll miss her.. greatly!~
bye bye-home sweet home..

Sunday, October 19, 2008

tak baik

kdg2 sy ade moment yg sy rase yg sy ni tak baik banding org lain, sgt banyak flaws, jahat, tah ape-ape, undeserving and incompetent.

this is one of those moments.

sy wish sy sebaik org lain..

Friday, October 17, 2008

the wonders of the net!

haha.poyo kan tajuk post kali ni? just for the sake of entertaining my good mood since the internet has been quite cooperative n helpful in delivering me all the materials needed for me to complete my literature almost half-way done.yeee~! whoever invented internet was surely a pure genius. (bill gates was it??) geezzzz..alhamdulillah. beyond these high-tech-fully helpful gadgets, there is an unseen might that made it all, all these to happen in a flicker of a finger snaps. that's Him, the Almighty. alhamdulillah, thank you Allah.. =)

thanx also to my two brothers who have been extra sweet in letting me to conquer the computer all to my self for the whole week!, without much complain or ado! i noe they've been supressing their online gaming crave just for the sake of allowing me to finish my work. how sweet~u guys are a gem! hehe~ =D

Thursday, October 16, 2008

bersabarlah..selagi bisa

arghh geramnyee...penat buat sehari semalam..hilang plakk additional literature review cos komp hanggg-switch on-then dah tarakkk

if i just follow my heart desire, id be screaming n burst in anger since, me, my nature, my fitrah is not patient. i'd have to fight hard to have patience. but i noe, patience is a virtue, and Islam teaches it followers to have high patience. like the great prophet rasulullah saw who was tested neverendingly yet still remaining steadfast in upholding patience as his virtue..

be patient...cos patience is a piece of peace that cud lit the gloomy heart
be patient...cos if u don't embrace patience now, Allah will test u until one time,the patience is forced to be instilled within u..

practice patience..
Allah loves those who are patients
it's a virtue of those who are wise..

n He wants his servants to engulf the beauty of patience
as patience is the fruit of imaan
which only the muttaqien can taste the sweetness of it

in life, choose to be patient..
bersabarlah..selagi bisa!

husna and her new cat

now husna has a new friend to play with. introducing....... bom-briau!!

~si comels..hehhe mcm kenal x bakul ni?~

~husna angkut gune bakul nk pg pasar~

~tgh hibernate~

~tgh main2.tgk hepynye husnaa...~

haha:..husna calls her bom-briau mum pulak kate her name is nurul kelabu while me calls her syasya (anak tima in da future-hahaa). let's see... how long the cat will stay in our home..hehe

Wednesday, October 15, 2008


i woke up this morning with my head throbbing. had a weird dream last nite, i dreamt of myself swimming. and then, there was dilla bro, my ktt-gud fren as well in it. weird. and this uneasy feeling been hovering me ever since.

turning to Allah for comfort..

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

the urge to write 'sum' thing

thank god it's holidays~!
yep, im still holidaying n njoyin' every minute of it. my days are filled wif the works of a house wife (yelahh tuu)-managing the households,the clothes,mandikan husna,suap husna makan,yet seem to be enjoying them. now i understand why Allah sets women to be at home while men have to strive outside to earn a living and fight for the ummah. we, women, have to fight too but, locationwise its different. it's really nice just being at home, until i have the tendency to just hibernate at home, not contacting anyone not even close friends. hehe. but u guys are still inside my heart, hehhe.

i'm also currently focusing to finish off the paperworks of my thesis. yeah, i know i've been brooding over this and has been mentioning bout my thesis like for the zillionth times yet still not over it yet.
i'll make sure i'll finish, soon, insyaAllah. its also really nice to go into depth on anxiety, the research title im working on, cos it's like studying a part of myself, too.

raya also had been super great. although i'd missed the maahad 02 batch raya convoy which managed to gather almost 40 people (that was above awesome), the frustration was compensated by organizing our ugm 05 batch kl-raya convoy. only managed to gather those yg available around kl. next time kte wat kt negeri lain pulak. hehhe. it was soo fun. around 15 peeps joined. really had a great time. n i bet the memory will last a lifetime.. (haha jiwang laks!)

~us at rumah has~

~us at rumah opah iman~

wut else that i was goin' to mention-herm oredi forgotten. njoy remaining hols everyone!~ =)
me going to be bak in jogja by 22nd october insyaAllah, accompanied with bestest buddy beloved sista Hudaaa yaaay~!

Saturday, October 11, 2008

cant hardly wait

i just love these lyrics, so inspirational
cant hardly wait to watch laskar pelangi the movie..

Laskar Pelangi
by Nidji

mimpi adalah kunci
untuk kita menaklukkan dunia
berlarilah tanpa lelah
sampai engkau meraihnya

laskar pelangi
tak kan terikat waktu
bebaskan mimpimu di angkasa
warnai bintang di jiwa

menarilah dan terus tertawa
walau dunia tak seindah surga
bersyukurlah pada Yang Kuasa
cinta kita di dunia

cinta kepada hidup
memberikan senyuman abadi
walau hidup kadang tak adil
tapi cinta lengkapi kita

laskar pelangi
tak kan terikat waktu
jangan berhenti mewarnai
jutaan mimpi di bumi

menarilah dan terus tertawa
walau dunia tak seindah surga
bersyukurlah pada Yang Kuasa
cinta kita di dunia

menarilah dan terus tertawa
walau dunia tak seindah surga
bersyukurlah pada Yang Kuasa
cinta kita di dunia