i can do it

there has been a phase in my life where my thirst for knowledge and my perseverance in studies are at peak. i've done it, and im sure i can do it once again.

~End of Surgery department, welcoming dermatovenerealogy~

Malaysia, on Friday i'll return!

4 days' countdown

exactly 4 days before my sis' big event. and im partially tired, after a week busy on helping to prepare the doorgifts and aparently lately got infected with upper respiratory tract infection (URTI). i cant help but recall my comprehensive test since URTI was exactly the topic i got for my clinical reasoning. uhuh. and it went bad. malaise, feverish, fluish, muscle and joint pain with a slight headache n yeah, precisely ANKLE PAIN, n a sore throat. huhu.

and my parents have started the 'kerahan tenaga' regime. spring cleaning the house. in a few days my house will be packed n jammed with relatives and friends near n far. and i havent renewed my passport yet. sadly im returning to jogja next tuesday. and im considering on going private blogging. like doyot. hehhe.

another day =)

another day..another adventure! (haha..adventure laa sangaat)..
goin' jogging with iman at 6.30
sending my motor to honda service centre at 8.30 (shock absorber desperately needs to be fixed-remembering ravi shocked face when i incidentally told him bout the shock absorber thing)
going to superindo to buy groceries for our 'masak nasi ayam ramai2 project' at 10.00
fetching kak gym beforehandlaa! =)
doing thesis result interpretation throughout the day
erm wut else?
eyp..

rumah kat mlysia buat ape harini?critelaa..knape man n ecad dh tak slalu online. man kate ade nk tanye akak sumthing?apekah?

*on playing opick nasyeeds from his Ar Rahman album. not bad!

ini man. man looks cute in dis pic.winduuuu~

ini husna kecik2.soo cute ;). mak...nk adik kecik lagik,,!!

ini pulak si debab kak huda kecik2!mum alwiz told that she was supersmart mase kecik2, so protective of me (yeke?kdg2 mcm bully2zemon je..hehhehe). mane gmbr sy kecik2???wuuu...

holidayin'

it's holiday time! this time around my holiday extends from 25 dis till 4 jan. but i'm not going anywhere in the nearest time. stuck in my room having to finish off my thesis since our result seminar is coming soon on the 31st disember. me n kepam are still not done yet with our discussion, but its ok. one step at a time. plenty of time awaits insyaAllah.

my right middle and ring finger still ache after almost a month ( i think?) since i got them injured during our 1st basket game. thanks for the repetitive injuries they had to endure consecutively afterwards (in fact the victim is always those two fingers, i wonder y?-cos i just lurrvvee to tepis bolaa), the ring finger one is no longer straight. seriously it bends! HELP ME HELP ME..(mcm mane nk sarung cincin nanti??). hehhe. my back and abdomen hurts too. =(

kak huda is going back to jb this weekend, she'll be having holidays till next wednesday while tma is already home sweet, oh, how i miss home~! azra is also malaysia home sweet for her brother's wedding. luckily i have cek pah by my side, going through the thicks n thins, lurve you heap dearie ;)

meanwhile, azua (my maahad friend) is planning to visit jogja next year. but since my holidays are still not yet fixed, i just can't give the final say to her to have her flite ticket booked. january n february will be full of course with ppbkk practice ( i really hope so) while middle feb will be the ppbkk exam itself. while for march, most probably i'll be in malaysia while waiting for the ppbkk exam result ( determining whether we could proceed in entering clinical or get delayed). and our pkpmi congress is at bali on middle march (wink-wink*), the two proposed dates for the congress are the 13th-15th or the 20-22nd. i hope approval will be on the 20-22 march since my sister's wedding is on the 14th march and i wanna attend both! (",)..

fani my good friend has been messaging me inviting me to her home in cilegon (nearby jakarta), and keep saying that qaulan misses tante toy..hihi. qaulan is fani's baby, i wonder how big qaulan is right now compared to the last time i saw her from the photos fani sent me. she was so adorable, n small! i so wanna go to cilegon, but rite now i suppose that i have to prioritize, my studies are down in the drain, n i'm completely clueless to enter clinical. definitely i have to consider about my studies...i wonder will i be a good physician with only 'nil' knowledge that i have in my brain? definitely not. so buck it up, toy! ( untuk keamanan manusia sejagat, hehe).

i'm signing off now, if i were to continue, my tales to tell are endless! please pray for me..pray that i'll be a good person. i'll write more soon. missing home! till we meet again...

husna and her new cat

now husna has a new friend to play with. introducing....... bom-briau!!


~si comels..hehhe mcm kenal x bakul ni?~

~husna angkut gune bakul nk pg pasar~

~tgh hibernate~

~tgh main2.tgk hepynye husnaa...~

haha:..husna calls her bom-briau ...my mum pulak kate her name is nurul kelabu while me calls her syasya (anak tima in da future-hahaa). let's see... how long the cat will stay in our home..hehe

the urge to write 'sum' thing

thank god it's holidays~!
yep, im still holidaying n njoyin' every minute of it. my days are filled wif the works of a house wife (yelahh tuu)-managing the households,the clothes,mandikan husna,suap husna makan,yet seem to be enjoying them. now i understand why Allah sets women to be at home while men have to strive outside to earn a living and fight for the ummah. we, women, have to fight too but, locationwise its different. it's really nice just being at home, until i have the tendency to just hibernate at home, not contacting anyone not even close friends. hehe. but u guys are still inside my heart, hehhe.

i'm also currently focusing to finish off the paperworks of my thesis. yeah, i know i've been brooding over this and has been mentioning bout my thesis like for the zillionth times yet still not over it yet.
i'll make sure i'll finish, soon, insyaAllah. its also really nice to go into depth on anxiety, the research title im working on, cos it's like studying a part of myself, too.

raya also had been super great. although i'd missed the maahad 02 batch raya convoy which managed to gather almost 40 people (that was above awesome), the frustration was compensated by organizing our ugm 05 batch kl-raya convoy. only managed to gather those yg available around kl. next time kte wat kt negeri lain pulak. hehhe. it was soo fun. around 15 peeps joined. really had a great time. n i bet the memory will last a lifetime.. (haha jiwang laks!)

~us at rumah has~

~us at rumah opah iman~

wut else that i was goin' to mention-herm oredi forgotten. njoy remaining hols everyone!~ =)
me going to be bak in jogja by 22nd october insyaAllah, accompanied with bestest buddy beloved sista Hudaaa yaaay~!

inter 05 outbound day..

sumtimes pics speak more than words and here are they.. (credits to sheng yew=) )

us

girls only

the girls and the facis

thanx =)

its weeken, horraay!(alhamdulillah..)

just as i've been planning to spend my weken home alone, all to myself (finally..i thot), the INTER secretariate has sumting up their sleeves pulak. herm, i may choose je not to go but afraid that i might miss sum really gud quality time wif my batchmates maybe for the sekian kalinya..

i was somnolent the whole day thru, due to the fact that i didn't sleep at all last nite in order to finish up my pharmaco report. serves me right for procrastinating. i kickstarted doin' it just last nite. i was sleepyhead so badly to think that i even dozed off time usrah n tenteran anatomy!gosh, dozing off in anatomy lab is the last unthinkable things to do. thanks to doyot, has n nanie for being such a bunch of supporting friends (sudi melayan me thru thick and thins throughout the day n esp doyot for sudi layan2 me merepek2 =] ).

as reminded by has (to get sum sleep once i've gotten back home =) ), i immediately put myself to bed after performing my asar prayer. i was soo deeply lost in transition until azra woke me up for maghrib prayer. gosh, the sleep seemed to last forever. it felt so. when i woke up i thot i was in a different space ( so much for exaggerating). that's wut happens when u desperately need sleep.the kinda sleep that u'd get is the ' hard' sleep.

oh, and to adek2 06 : min, faz and siti yg sgt cute, thanx for the lovely green brooch! (wlupun upon request dari diri sendiri yg menggedik.theh hee..). thanx sesangat, korg memang cuteee,hehe =).

n to cek powh...ayyoo dah nak 2 minggu cek powh jadi housemate baru kitorg gantikan kak azy. tak wish 'welcoming the new tenant' lagi..cek powh sayang..welcome to our living shack, to our humble abode, to our small yet warm and cozy escapade..ur presence in the house brings out a lot more love to the house..its highly appreciated, welcoming u as a part of us and hopefully us as a part of u too..susah senang same dirase..=D

to lovely queen iman, get well sooon from ur molar teeth tootache..kesian die..i cud imagine how painful it is..the 'get well soon wish' goes along to doyot..(rajin2 makan ubat =) )..kepam n yati (hope u both recuperate completely from the illness..soon insyaAllah)..

too bad iman n doyot cant join us for the so called inter 05 'fun day' tomoroe =(..

ohh, and im missing my siblings laa..just afta magrib, me, azra n belle chatted bout our sisters n brothers...how we might deviate in sum things, but deep inside there's the love that even though we don show it its alwiz there. the same goes to me n my brothers. i just love to pick up fights with them (theh he..jahat kan) but we both know that we dun really mean the harsh words we said and the bad things we've done. ada kedekatan dalam pergaduhan, hehe. i suppose u both know me too well..missing u both from the bottom of my hearts.

us during kak huda's engagement..timah, me, ain (my lil cousin), kak huda, ecad, man n yg kecik kat bwh tuu unaa...

kak huda cheer up..smile a lot ya..i really miss u..=). i believe we'll make it thru..

mental @ heart cold?

When ur bak at home, nothing else matters anymore. we're stuck in wut we call the ‘comfort zone’.And to break away from the luxury comfort of it is as difficult as breaking away from prison. That's wut im feeling rite now. Anyhow, i still try to make my hols beneficial by lending out helping hands as much as I cud, running errands here and there, teaching my brothers,entertaining my mum and husna-a five year old kid who is getting smarter and smarter day by day and keeping awake after subuh (I dun ever wanna break this gud habit-time is soo precious!),reading as time allows me to- I’ve read The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho and The kite runner by khaleed hosseini. Both books are good but my preference is Paulo coelho’s. I’ve discovered that I like his book themes-it’s inspirational and it reflects upon life and aspects of spirituality where I think everyone cud relate to. His another work, Brida (which I’ve flipped thru in MPH bookstore) is also good and of course, most of his books are international bestsellers.

And rite now I’m on my way of reading ‘Bagaimana menyentuh hati-kiat-kiat memikat objek dakwah’ to save my flames of Islamic spirit from fading by the blow of this ‘vacation wind’. huhhu. this very good book is written by abbas as siisiy-one of the 1st generation of Ikhwanul Muslimin members who received direct ‘tarbiyah qur’aniyah’ from Asy Syahid Hassan Al Banna. Of course, Hassan Al Banna, who can be considered the Mujadid of the 13th century is very well known for his beautiful akhlak and behaviour, the world misses people like him. I love the narration of this book plus the Qur’anic verses selected matches very well with the subjects that are discussed in this book. think this book is a must read to all muslims. Wake up oh muslims!

To everyone’s enjoying holidays,maybe it’s ok to have mental freeze,ur mind needs the rest, but dunt let it rests for too long,it’s a predilection for Alzheimer,plus most importantly,dun ever let ur HEART freezes cold. It needs nourishment and supplication. Keep it alive and burning, wut’s worser than a dying heart? Give sum thot for the ummah,k? The ummah needs us.

Last but not least, here I am going to promote our PKPMI Polaroid writing contest-3 categories – 1) opinions or thots, 2) creative witings and 3) places of writings. For those who are finding ways to kill their ample time during this leisure, do submit ur participations, talented people!!

the place i so want to go rite now

i want to go to ISTANBUL, TURKEY!

Earlier on,Istanbul was known as Constantinople. Quoting the saying of Napoleon Bonaparte :"if the world is made into a country, Constantinople would be its Capital City"

The conqueration of Constantinople later by the muslim armies led by Sultan Muhammed Al-Fateh in 1453 was already quoted by the prophet:
Hadith of the Prophet, sallallahualaihiwassalam:
"Verily you shall conquer Constantinople. What a wonderful leader will the leader be, and what a wonderful army will that army be!"

The city was originally settled in 667BC by Greeks who named it Byzantion after King Byzas.

Istanbul is the only city in the world which has been the capital city! of three different empires:

Roman empire (Constantinople-AD 443) -->Byzantine empire

-->Ottoman empire (1453-Sultan Muhammed Al-Fateh changed its name to Constantiniyye)

Unfortunately when Mustapha Kamal Attaturk came into power he changed the city's name from Constantiniyye to Istanbul while Ankara replaced Istanbul as the capital city of Turkey.huhu.

Here are the many attractions in Istanbul:

Bosphorus strait

-together with the Marmara Sea,is the only strait connecting Asia (in the east by the Black Sea) and Europe (by the Mediterranean Sea in the west)

-Bosphorus means 'passage of cow' in thracian.In the Legend of Io,Io,one of the many Zeus' lover,was turned into cow by Zeus who is afraid his wife Hera may get enraged after finding out about the affair.so the cow was asked to swim in the sea to run away.But Hera found out about it anyway.Poor Io the cow.

Bosphorus Bridge at night

-A bridge connecting Asia to Europe apart from the Sultan Muhammed Al Fateh's bridge

Aya Sofia/Hagia Sofia/Sancta Sophia/The Church of Great Wisdom

-used to be a church during the Byzantine empire-then turned into a mosque in Ottoman empire.Kamal Attaturk changed it into a museum anyway.huhu

SultanAhmet's Mosque

-Famously known as the Blue Mosque

as u can see its blue background (of Bosphorus strait).

-Was built by the Sultan to compete with the beautiful Byzantium's AyaSofia .Has 6 minarets n a total of 36 domes.Whoa~

Blue Mosque

-upclose n personal.hehe

The mosque of Sulayman the Magnificient
-the largest mosque in Turkey.built by Sultan Sulayman 1.Outside the mosque,there is his tomb besides his powerful and ambitious wife,Roxelana's tomb.

-His death in 1566 starts the period known as the Rule of The Women.Weak sultans were encouraged to indulge in pleasures while their mothers and grandmothers busily indulge in political scheming and planning.hoho


Galata Tower aka The Tower of Christ

-it controlled a giant metal chain placed across the Golden Horn to prevent muslim ships from invading the waterways

-It was futile anyhow as under the genius Sultan Muhammad Fateh's order,the muslim armies transported their boats overland and stormed in the waterways the next morning.That's how they managed to conquer Constantinople (cool,isn't it?)

books and books!

i think i need a dictionary. a small, concise yet compact ones like the one azra has from Collins. the thing with me is that i read quite A LOT of books but wenever i stumble across new vocabularies, i never bother or shall i say too LAZY to refer to the dictionary. so i end up just assuming what the words mean, and as i'd come across the words over and over again i might believe that the word's meaning i assumed is true. but the problem is that sumtimes it is NOT correct the way i had interpreted it, or maybe sumtimes i do get lucky n the words are guessed correctly, yet i wont be too sure to use the words in my writings, so that might explain the lack of vocabularies u might notice in my writings. herm, the problem with the improvisers, one like me! anyway, i wonder how am i to buy a dictionary in this current moment, im too broke for God's sake! urgh. one month in average for the next scholarship to be deposited.herm, shall i just wait for my next birthday, as a bithday prezzie request? gosh, i'd be too old by then.LOL!

Anyway, wut have i been doing for these past thurs-sunday holidays?apart from being a succesful couch potato, attending birthday parties (we had doyot's on friday plus aida joe's n NK's combo on saturday), the maulidur rasul celebration ( which went off quite a blast), finishing my PK reports (yeay!-quite an achievement for me i shall say), i've been reading a few books, like usual.

God, i just love reading and journalism.Throw any books at me and they will get my eyes' attention. I suppose i inherited the 'talent' from my dad. my grandma once told me- "ur dad would rather opt to stay at home to read books compared to wandering outside aimlessly even when i had given him money to spend".hahha! Don't worry, anyway my dad is not a nerd-he was a good athlete, adventurous, charismatic, influential (very!-this is from my mum's point of view =P) n had always wanted to become a marine engineer when he was a youngster. The cutest thing is that my sisters and i used to have a knack at reading sidney sheldon's books (of course Kak Huda started it,me n tima were her loyal followers-LOL) and whenever he caught me reading them he'd come n say "i used to read quite a lot of sidney sheldons when i was a teen "(sheldon is an old writer anyway) n he'd say "oh, this book is about this and that, rite?"-hehhe. and sumtimes he'd say (when i read books from other authors)- "what's this book is about and once u've finished, lend me them "(though i never did-oh yeah,once-hahha!)

Anyway, now my sidney sheldon book reading era is a long history already. Now my book pick range has matured a bit. i'd opt for something more spiritual, more of about life issues, inspirational and universal theme,though i still enjoy thrillers, mind twisters and psychologic stuffs.Anyway, my point (initially) was to share the books i had read during the 3 days hols actually=P. I've kickstarted reading 'Berguru kepada Allah by Abu Sangkan', Rona Bosphorus by Zaid Akhtar (its a thin book- one of Hadiah Sastra Utusan winner) and two of Belle's Readers Digest february 2007 and 2008 edition. I still do enjoy inspirational and breakthrough stories from the readers digest (though not as hardcore as before as sumtimes i have a feeling that it sorta have sum antireligion sentiments).Anyway again,i've linked a new blog belonging to Anya Peters, her story about being homeless and living in her car for 9 months and how blogging was her only contact to the external and real world was featured in RD feb 2008 issue.her real life stories in the blog touched the hearts of many and it eventually managed to change her fate from being homeless to finally have a home when New York Times featured her story.Plus she even succeded to write a book about her life which became bestseller. Check out her blog link.

Herm, to danesz n tima i'll leave u with one (and the only!) previous maulidur rasul pic i had..hehe.lotsa lurve, (cipika cipiki) =).back to books now u...!

from left : qilah, doy2, pong and me (i noe u guyz dah bored dgn pic ni tp mereka sgt cute!xsia2 mereke bertema purple dan memakai alma mater ugm-mereka menang juare kuiz sirah maulidurrasul mengalahkan kurt kuden dan kwn2 @ team uhibbu fatimah)-hehe. takpe kuden,aku xmenyesal pakai biruu =P.lain kali boleh berentap lagi ye..dlm kuiz minggu memperingati khalifah,haha,untung naseb org siape tauu~hehhe!

i love holidays!

i love holidays!

i wish we cud have more of them..=)

me in one of my holiday moods..=)