Life's worth

Summer night on the 4th of July and we're hanging outside
I take my kids downtown to watch fireworks fly
As the light flicker in my daughters eyes
I think about the plight of a war torn child
And how these same sights and sounds make them cry

And how much is this life worth, is what I say to you
As I sit here right now, watching the evening news
And how much is this life worth, cause it cant be true
We're dying over different points of view
We're dying over different points of view
So how much is this life worth to you.

It five o-clock and Im rushing home like I always do
I call ahead to my wife and kids and say I'll be there soon
I put the radio on, and the announcer speaks
Of a man rushing home just in time to see
His house blown to rubble with his family beneath

And how much is this life worth, is what I say to you
As I sit here right now, watching the evening news
And how much is this life worth, cause it cant be true
We're dying over different points of view
We're dying over different points of view
So how much is this life worth to you.

How much is this life worth,
How much is this life worth,
How much is this life worth,
How much is this life worth,

We say we stand for justice for all, but what about babies when bombs fall
How much is their life worth to you
And when we say we answer the call of Allah
But is it the way of Rasoolullah
How much is his life worth to you

Yah Allah, help us make dua

And how much is this life worth, is what I say to you
As I sit here right now, watching the evening news
How much is this life worth, cause it can't be true
That we're dying over different points of view
So how much is this life worth to you.

So how much is this life worth to you?

(A nasyeed by Native deen )

the prophet's hand

when globalization is taking its course, and we move too swiftly,unable to catch our breath,our senses are blunted and our sights blinded, remember, human beings are still the same-we all need the same basic bottom elements since the invent of time;- love, care and attention.

Cos that's what i feel when my pace is going too fast and i can't pause;- i miss to catch up with old friends, not having a glimpse how their lives have changed so, i forget to notice how the flowers in our garden is blossoming beautifully with its different colours, and i too become indifferent to the change of weather and the evolution of time, it seems as if the time freezes. and most importantly, i become cranky, cold to people, forgetting how to show love and care when its the most vital thing that me myself actually need. sometimes we just forget that we all need the prophet's hand,

The Propet’s hands, silken smooth and soft to touch,
sometimes we need those hands so much,
to feel them clasp our own, let us know we’re not alone.
The Prophet’s hands, as we toil in the square, come up behind us unaware.
Playful palms across our eyes, teasing to help us realize,
We need the jesting, joking, calming - Prophet’s hands.

So remind me, when im moving too fast, and my pace cant pause that i need to slow down, relax, and rerevise what are the priorities in my life. whenever seriousness is my only default face mode-and i've forgotten how to smile - refresh me that its ok to joke and cheerfulness is essential to exist in this world-cause that's wut i really need-for u to show me that u actually do care.deep down inside.

The Prophet’s hands,
silken smooth and soft to touch
sometimes we need those hands so much,
to feel them clasp our own and let us know we’re not alone.
The Prophet’s hands, If they could take over the reigns,
if they could take away the strains,
guide us to the end with the patience of a friend.

Oh Allah, sometimes we need the prophet's hands,
Oh Allah, sometimes we miss the prophet's hands....

take control

it's been ages since i last watched a movie, but a few days back cekpah came to my room for a chitchat n all of a sudden we ended up watching the movie twilight from a cd. this i suppose is the 4th time cekpah is watching it(hehhe..bocor rahsie hang). if a lesson could be derived from this movie, for me it would be learning 'to take control'. maybe for those who have watched the movie- might be utterly clueless to which scene in the movie im referring to. for information it's the scene when bella's bespectacled friend ( i cant remember the girl's name) was ruminating over eric not asking her to the prom n bella responded by saying 'take control' and ask him instead. the scene might be trivial and the issue is 'super-lame' (who cares bout who dates who anyway-prom..apekahh?) but bella's respond 'take control' is crucial and i think is applicable to my life as a lesson.

i've always been a person who let life travels loosely. i don't put any tight rope to the proper end of it. i live life like water. it just flows. i don't plan. never did. take an example, i didn't even plan to become a doctor when i was in secondary school. i just let time decides, whatever time will bring. and until now, i don't even have a proper plan for my future. i'm only sure that i'd love to further my studies to be a specialist. to think of it it might be 'cewl' just to live life the way it is, but on the other hand, there are loose ends to it. like the saying goes, 'failing to plan means planning to fail'. of course, human proposes God predestines, but being able to plan properly for ur life also means that ur taking control over things that u can change, and the outcome results in u becoming more confident in navigating ur life, which way u want it to be heading.

so in my case, i think i need to re'revise' my life and come out with a certain plan and action regarding it. im 23 year old already, and next year i'll be turning 24. i'm aging, gosh. wut i should do is to start 'taking, remote controlling'-take control of my emotion, the kind of person i want to evolve being, take control over my studies, the kind of doctor i'll soon becoming. taking control also means to minimize worrying, instead-channelling it towards acting as in the saying; 'action speaks louder than words'. although it might not be 100% ideally turns out the way i'd be expecting cause there'll be God's hands in the moulding, at least
--> 'aim for the skies, at least u'll land among the stars'. like arai's quote to ikal from andrea hirata's tetralogi of laskar pelangi said: 'jangan pernah mendahului takdir'-interpreted as; before fate decides ur life, take maximize control over it beforehand. u have the ability to maximize the control over ur life if u believe so!

"..Verily! Allah will not change the good condition of a people as long as they do not change their state of goodness themselves.. " (Ar-Ra'd:11)

the basic dissection week

first of all, when i was younger i'd never thought that i'd pursue medicine seriously, and least of all be inclined towards surgery-i'd vowed since my 1st year that surgery would be the last thing on earth i'd wanted to specialize in.

but here i am-taking basic dissection week for my elective block-and it turns out to be quite cewl and unbelievably i turned out to be quite a compulsive dissector!

my basic dissection week started with some lectures by mas jun, dr cahaya n the alwiz ceria dr santoso.mas jun has always been one of our most favourite anatomy assistant-and now shall i say-anatomist?-still he hasn't been a letdown-wowing us with his teaching ability, patience and the intelligence of answering any questions we stormed at him. his talent n passions are indeed awesome!

i had always admired dr santoso-he's really brilliant, passionate and cheerful-haha~i was told that he'd completed his medical degree with a 4 flat!wahhh~ i wish i have his brain!- will never forget the way he'll look at us in awe when we can't recall the anatomy parts he ask-hehe!

talk about being overconfident-here was a few bloops n blunders i made during tutorial which was unrevealed and pointed out by dr cahayani during her lecture!!!-malunye saye sbb terlebih jagung(corn-fident)!!! (muke merah malu tapi buat2 xtau pandang depan je..)-->

*fossa cubiti yang telah ditambah perasa sesuka hati menjadi fossa mediana cubiti
*scaphoid dekat radius snuffbox laa bukan ulnar (kok ini ga tauu??-bisik dr cahayani dlm hati-heh he hee)
*flexor pollicis longus disalah sebut dgn nyum nyum-nya menjadi flexor palmaris longus (beda banget lokasi dua-dua muscle nihh)

a few things i just knew regarding the cadaver in anatomy lab:-
*they come from the unclaimed body from the hospital-also unclaimed in some sort of jabatan kebajikan masyarakat (lebeyh kuang)-and since the jabatan cannot afford to cover its burial cost-it'll be given to the anatomy lab of medicine faculty-n it will later be treated as a dead body with respect-dimandikan,dikapankan dan disolatkan dan didoakan supaya contributionnya ini akan menjadi amal baik buatnya di akhirat kelak..

*after undergoing the above rituals-the body will be infused with highly concentrated formalin through his artery femoralis in the right thigh for 24 hours to rid off all of the blood contained in his blood vessels and to preserve the integrity of his internal organs!

*then the cadaver will be immersed in a huge formaline pool usually containing around 20 cadavers at a time-to preserve his external body parts.

*there is a huge underground hole in the back of anatomy lab to bury off the cadavers that is no longer of/in use.

*the ones that we're using for dissection is usually aged 5-10 years (youngest is 3 months old), since the formalin strength and hence toxicity is lesser for us.

the aim of dissection is to expose the body parts as extensive as possible for the purpose of learning and identifying each structure in the body (ex: exposing the muscles plus preserving the appendages that arise alongside it like the artery, vein and nerve). and this morning dissection class- the 9 of us- 4 per group- geared up in lab coats, masks and the dissection equipments: me n shenyew dissected the cadaver's trunk while budi n shariff dissected its upper limb (tangan). later we shifted tasks since budi n shariff were tak larat to incise the thick fatty layer of the cadaver's limb (sum of the fatty layer even melted!). since i told earlier that me and shenyew were compulsive dissectors we enjoyably took over, huhu! 3 hours hardly passed by! and when it was over-i was still not done in exposing all of its arm muscles, plus a bonus for me for accidentally cut a nerve and an artery (when we're actually supposed to preserve them-ahaks!). it was overall fun n seriously a whole new learning experience-i felt really like a butcher. n tomoroe we'll proceed in dissecting the lower limb (kaki) pulak. sum assignments also have to be submitted in tomoroe and me still havent done it yet..hurmm.

i was so tired for the day and was back at home 10 minutes before maghrib after the skills lab meeting with the new assistants. it was raining extremely heavy - n i cudnt stand anymore to wait-so i just redah the rain-it was so lebat i hardly cud see. and i arrived home feeling absolutely famished and a bit off the mood-yet i knew better to rid it off quickly. herm-many works to be done-the tasks seem endless. a few thoughts on my mind:-

my wishlists:-
- sumbody to do the pkp khidmat bakti masyarakat proposal for me
- sumone to replace and pay for my motor's new shock absorber-its leaking, n for god's sake,the journey feels so bumpyish!
-ubat jerawat!

dalam kehendak-Nya

"mana milik kita?
tidak ada milik kita"
(Mana milik kita-Nadamurni)

redha dengan ketentuan Allah
pasti ianya yg terbaik,
bukankah Dia yg Maha Mengetahui?

the pages are written,
the inks are dried,
up there in the Lauhul Mahfuz,
before the time i cud even think of

what more can i say?
than i shall prostrate to You
if its for the best
then rather i shall thank You

“And whoever is dutiful to Allah, He makes a way out for him (from every difficulty). And He will provide for him from places he never could imagine. And whoever puts his trust in Allah, He
will suffice him. Verily, Allah will accomplish His purpose. Indeed, Allah has set a measure for all things.” [ At-Talaaq: 2-3]

tinggal yakin, je kan?

di saat ruh itu sepi

di saat ruh itu rasa sunyi..
di ketika pengabdian sebenar tulus pada Tuhan diganti spiritual engineerings,
rekayasa manusia untuk berpura-pura dirinya dekat pada Pencipta..
di waktu hari2 diisi futile, meaningless conversations,..routine dan mundane acts..
di kala blank spaces mengisi rongga2 jiwa di antara sela waktu;

.:Tuhan kurniakan teman untuk mengingatkan..

‘Teman yang paling baik adalah apabila kamu melihat wajahnya, kamu teringat akan Allah, mendengar kata-katanya menambahkan ilmu agama, melihat gerak-gerinya teringat mati..’

dan benar, kata2 yang baik dari teman yang mengingatkan itu tidak ternilai harganya berbanding dunia dan seisinya:-

(taken from naufa's email content..)

apa guna bacaan quran bersama tafsir andai tidak terasa dgn hati..
[Dan apabila dibacakan al-Quran, maka dengarkanlah baik-baik dan perhatikanlah dengan tenang agar kamu mendapat rahmat. (Surah al-A'raaf, ayat 204)]

apa guna duduk bangun dlm solat andai dosa masih dihampiri..
[innastholatatanha 'anil fahsya'i wal mungkar - “Sesungguhnya solat dapat mencegah seseorang dari perbuatan keji dan mungkar.”(Surah Al-Ankabuut: 45) ]

apa guna anggota amanah ALLAH andai sentiasa dlm leka..

apa guna cinta andai kpd pencipta hanya bersahaja..

apa guna ukhuwah andai bukan untuk memperingatkan..

apa guna maghfirahNya andai taubat ditinggalkan..


sungguh benar kita kerap menghabiskan emosi dengan manusia yang akhirnya menyakitkan..
sungguh benar pula kita sentiasa menjadikan alasan 'manusia itu pelupa' untuk tidak mengingatiNya..

...jazakillah adik naufa ;)
(I'll be counting the days for u to come)

"Kelazatan di dunia ini tinggal tersisa 3 perkara; qiyamullail, bertemu dengan saudara seiman dan shalat jemaah" - Ibnul Munkadir

"Aku sempat bertemu dengan beberapa kaum dan kelompok. Mereka ini tidak pernah bersuka cita atas melimpahnya dunia. Pun, tidak pernah berduka cita atas hilangnya dunia. Di mata mereka, kekayaan dunia itu ibarat tanah."- Hassan Al- Bashri

bersabarlah..selagi bisa

arghh geramnyee...penat buat sehari semalam..hilang plakk additional literature review cos komp hanggg-switch on-then dah tarakkk

if i just follow my heart desire, id be screaming n burst in anger since, me, my nature, my fitrah is not patient. i'd have to fight hard to have patience. but i noe, patience is a virtue, and Islam teaches it followers to have high patience. like the great prophet rasulullah saw who was tested neverendingly yet still remaining steadfast in upholding patience as his virtue..

be patient...cos patience is a piece of peace that cud lit the gloomy heart
be patient...cos if u don't embrace patience now, Allah will test u until one time,the patience is forced to be instilled within u..

practice patience..
Allah loves those who are patients
it's a virtue of those who are wise..

n He wants his servants to engulf the beauty of patience
as patience is the fruit of imaan
which only the muttaqien can taste the sweetness of it

in life, choose to be patient..
bersabarlah..selagi bisa!

cant hardly wait

i just love these lyrics, so inspirational
cant hardly wait to watch laskar pelangi the movie..

Laskar Pelangi

by Nidji

mimpi adalah kunci
untuk kita menaklukkan dunia
berlarilah tanpa lelah
sampai engkau meraihnya

laskar pelangi
tak kan terikat waktu
bebaskan mimpimu di angkasa
warnai bintang di jiwa

menarilah dan terus tertawa
walau dunia tak seindah surga
bersyukurlah pada Yang Kuasa
cinta kita di dunia
selamanya…

cinta kepada hidup
memberikan senyuman abadi
walau hidup kadang tak adil
tapi cinta lengkapi kita

laskar pelangi
tak kan terikat waktu
jangan berhenti mewarnai
jutaan mimpi di bumi

menarilah dan terus tertawa
walau dunia tak seindah surga
bersyukurlah pada Yang Kuasa
cinta kita di dunia

menarilah dan terus tertawa
walau dunia tak seindah surga
bersyukurlah pada Yang Kuasa
cinta kita di dunia
selamanya
selamanya

changes are not made overnight

Now i understand that changes cannot be made overnight
It needs a process, a lot of factors will be involved then, and maybe it'll take a very long,long time..

it's just Soal Hati, isn't it?

from nothing to something..

i may not know a lot
but i'm learning
and i'm enjoying it..

although making mistakes and asking a lot of silly questions will be made along the way
i'll make do with it
knowing dat this item is needed
in the checklist
of the process to become from nothing to something..and progressing

"Celakalah orang2 yang hari ini nya tidak lebih baik dari semalam"
-Dr B.j aka Bambang Djarwoto..-

peluang untuk memperoleh kemuliaan..

tak banyak yg dah berlaku dlm hidup sy beberape hari ni. cume mlm td sebahagian drp kami sisterhood celebrate birthday kepam di 'kedai kopi'. design kedai ni agak lawa tp sygnya servisnya sgt2 lambat dan adekah patut tempat yg ber aircond ni dibenarkan utk merokok! (sy tak boleh terime sungguh..busuk tudungku jadinye..). tapi ape2 pun heppy dpt celebrate besday kepam dgn sisters yg lain =). n to kepam heppy belated 23, smoge smakin heppy dan diberkati..=D (kepam turns 23 last sunday). oh, n kepam sudahkah anda habis menganalisa thesis kte?hehe. me lg ckit..plannye adalah utk kite memasukkan data dlm spss stelah tentamen anat jumaat ni..

peluang memperoleh kemuliaan

last sunday we (me, azra, doyot, iman n ain) went to taruna (a pesantren) for our weekly pengajian n tafseer surah al-ahzab was discussed. an emphasize more or less was given regarding kemuliaan yg diberikan kpd kaum wanita. Ustazah aka ibu umar mentioned about satu hadits tentang kedatangan seorang wafid (utusan) dr kaum wanita bertemu Rasulullah sallallahualaihiwassalam untuk meminta persamaan hak antara lelaki dan wanita. wanita itu menyampaikan keluhan para wanita bahawa kaum lelaki diizinkan keluar berperang dan berpeluang utk mendapatkan syahid sedangkan kaum wanita duduk di rumah menguruskan keperluan suami dan anak-anak, di manakah peluang kami untuk mendapatkan syahid? kemudian Rasulullah dengan penuh hikmahnya menjawab, kembalilah kamu kepada kaum wanita dan sampaikan kpd mereka bhw sekiranya mereka mentaati suami dan menjaga hak2 nya, mereka akan mendapat ganjaran yang sama namun sedikit sekali antara para wanita yang mengamalkannya..

Satu lagi hadits turut membincangkan tentang kemuliaan yang diberikan kpd kaum wanita iaitu sekiranya seorang wanita itu solat 5 waktu, puasa sebulan di bulan Ramadhan, menjaga kehormatannya dan taat pada suami wanita itu boleh masuk ke dlm syurga dari mana2 pintu yg diinginkannya.

Namun ada juga hadis yg berlawanan bahawa Rasulullah sallallahualaihiwassalam bersabda Aku ditunjukkan neraka dan banyak penghuninya adalah wanita kerana mereka mengingkari kebaikan suaminya.Mungkin juga banyak wanita yang berpotensi menjadi penghuni neraka krn kurang memerhatikan soal aurat dan akhlak. Na'uzubillahi min zalik.

Jadi kesimpulan yg boleh sy ambil di sini ialah Allah itu Maha Adil. Dia telah memberi persamaan hak kepada kedua-dua wanita dan lelaki tapi dalam bidang yang berbeza. Benar, Ar Rijal Qawwamun 'ala Nisaa' tetapi di sebalik kehebatan seorang lelaki itu ada seorang wanita yang menyokongnya.

Wanita itu berpeluang untuk mendapatkan kemuliaan di sisi Allah dengan mentaati suami namun sedikit sekali yang memanfaatkan peluang ini. Malahah, kalau dilihat pada zaman ini lebih banyak wanita yang prefer untuk mengutamakan karier drp keluarga. Rugilah kita kalau mensia2kan peluang kemuliaan yang Allah beri ini. Sesungguhnya janji Allah adalah benar.

Seorang ibu itu jugalah madrasah pertama anak-anak. Jadi, wanita harus mempunyai kesedaran untuk melengkapkan diri dengan ilmu-ilmu ilahi dan duniawi (ex: betulkan bacaan Qur'an, hafal qur'an dsb) kerana merekalah nanti yg akan 1st hand mendidik anak2 untuk melahirkan anak2 kecil itu sbgai generasi jundi2 islam nanti. kalau tak, jadilah mereka seperti ketam, mengajar anaknya berjalan lurus tapi dia sendiri berjalan bengkok.sangat besar n amanah tanggungjwb seorg wanita ini rupanya. tapi besar pulalah ganjaran yang Allah janjikan padanya jika berjaya melaksanakannya dengan baik.

Semulia2 pengabdian adalah pengabdian kepada suami- kata2 daripada Ibu Umar.
(after the devotion to Allah and His Messenger to add)

When u talk about women rights, we shud also talk about women responsibilities. How can u request on ur rights when u dont perform ur responsibility wholely?
-Dr Hjh Harlina Haji Siraj

Ballighuni walau ayaat..

10 mu'assafat

Objektif tarbiyah (didikan hati) adalah untuk menghasilkan individu2 dengan 10 mu'assafat ini :

1) akidah yang sejahtera
2) ibadah yang benar
3) akhlak yang mantap
4) pemikiran yang berwawasan
5) jasmani yang kuat
6) mampu mencari mata pencarian
7) berdisiplin / mampu menguasai diri sendiri (high self control)
8) tersusun dalam pengurusan (self-organized)
9) menjaga waktu
10) bermanfaat kpd org lain..

let's self evaluate our own self. kalau kita menggelar diri kita org2 yang telah menerima tarbiyah dan sendiri berada di medan tarbiyah, apakah kita sudah memenuhi kesepuluh ciri2 tersebut. ohh, diriku terasa sungguh..esp part num 3, 7, 8 dan 9. oh..di manakah silapnya??

Tarbiyyah itu mendidik bukan mengajar.
Tarbiyyah itu mengasihi bukan mendominasi.
Tarbiyyah menghasilkan insan2 rabbani bukan insan2 yang tidak peduli..

Ya Allah didiklah hatiku..Bantulah aku untuk memahami kalamMu..bantulah aku untuk menghayati hakikat hidup ini..

"Sesungguhnya perumpaan dunia dan diriku adalah seperti seorang yang beristirahat sejenak di bawah sepohon pokok pada siang yang amat panas..kemudian ia pergi meninggalkannya.."

( HR Ahmad)

Love always wins

there are so many questions about life that u storm urself with, yet u just dont have the answers.

u seek the answers elsewhere externally just to find out that the answers lies in ur doorstep, it actually lies deep inside ur heart.
but sumtimes ur just doubtful about it.

reminds me of a saying in Tuesdays with Morrie:
'Life is a series of push and pulls.
But which will win?
Love always wins.. "

And lemme just add, love n takwa to Allah will always win too..
That's my basis of choice.

No matter how much i want a thing,
no matter how deep my love for some things,
It's still U above all matters
And its still U all that matters,
isn't it?

"Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu, padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi (pula) kamu menyukai sesuatu padahal ia amat buruk bagimu; Allah mengetahui, sedang kamu tidak mengetahui." (Al-Baqarah : 216)

May He always be my parameter of choice...

"Tuhanku, jangan biarkan aku sendirian. Dan Engkau adalah sebaik-baik Warits." (QS. Al-Abiya': 89).

the mess and clutters in my life

back home in jogja. sweet lovely,home. it seems like a blink of an eye just passed since i last saw the face of my mother and now her image could only be captured in the form of a picture in a frame. changes come and go,whether u like it or not. the good thing is that our house's front yard is now filled with cute shrubs or tiny plants, where vacant ground can hardly be seen. i really love this new change.


the sad thing is that, kak azy is leaving jogja, returning home to Malaysia,graduated as a doctor yesterday. must admit that i think im gonna miss her. ever since we've stayed in the house together she's been sort of a mother to me. and with her finally having to leave,i might notice the differences (i'll miss her cooking particularly!). in fact, a lot of seniors are leaving us. kak am's n kak fied's batch is graduating this december. some of them are really close to me,us. that will cause an impact. i bet jogja wont be the same again. it just wont be the same. im gonna miss them =(


my room is messy.our house is cluttered with papers. i wish that i cud just dump them all away. life is just complicated. and i sense that life as an adult had just begun. how i wish i am husna again and again.

sickness at bay

this is not the best time of my life yet i think im getting ill.
feverish,fluish plus headache
n how unmotivated i am to study,urgh
i promised myself to write my own quick review of the previous PERMAI 08,but cudnt manage to steal sum time.later,maybe.

pray for me that im fit enough to encounter this remaining 3more weeks of my 3rd yer-probably the busiest plus frenziest..aya yayy..!

kenape susah sgt nk buat modul ni??

i tink im having this writer's block.or syllabus maker block.err wutever.i've been sitting in front of the laptop since after subuh dis morning yet i havent managed to start writing the asthma module yet!i just dunno how to begin with.its just ASTHMA.not sumthing major.Global Initiative For Asthma 2007.i have been looking at u since dis morning.please give cooperation.i have piles of other stuffs to be done.*sigh*.my patience is tested at its very best today.may i excell in this test ya Allah..

the usually impatient toy--->the patient thahirah
*astaghfirullah..sabar2..

i just miss U..

Dear kak ayeshah,i think i miss u..

i miss ur laughters,giggles n smiles

i miss ur mischievous grin n agitated behaviour..*wink2

the optimistic outlook on life u've alwiz showed me

added with ur outgoing personality that never cease to shine

but most importantly,

i think i miss ur comfort pillow

..i miss the advices n life lessons u've alwiz preached me

..i miss u bringing me cake during my birthday even though u were bz enuf to just ignore me

..i miss u buying me bubur panas n ate it with me when i was having a fever n nobody else seemed to care

..i miss the time during the sleepover when we cud chat bout everything

all the night through

the simple things yet they mean a lot to me

which are enough to make my face lit n heart glow warmly

at the thought of u

the small gestures of kindness that make a huge difference to me

to show that u do care...

i think dat i just MISS U..miss u n miss u..;(

*smoge kak aye slaluu heppy dgn abg farid n baby yg bakal lahir..doakan sy kt sini selalu ye..wuu..

..me on anti hypocrisy, corruption and cunning acts..huhu

those who still care..

Cry for the world

do not cry for yourself

you are only a small part of life

What has man done here on earth

he built mountains of pain

rivers of tears and blood

If you want to do the right thing

do not pray for it to happen

just go ahead and do it

For nothing else will

and you will die waiting

so will the world.

Hiyam NoirMay 3 2008

http://www.palestinefreevoice.blogspot.com/

O Allah..please forgive me for the times i've spent crying and brooding over my own self and fate when there are many others who are screaming and crying in need..verily none of my hardships are COMPARABLE to their sufferings..

O Allah, I plead to u,make us those that still care and strive to make the earth prosper

Dont ever make us human beings that are indifferent towards other people's sufferings..

the pride..h.i.j.a.b for peace

the veil

They say, "Oh, poor girl, you're so beautiful you know

It's a shame that you cover up your beauty so.

She just smiles and graciously responds reassuringly,

"This beauty that I have is just one simple part of me.

"This body that I have, no stranger has the right to see.

"These long clothes, this shawl I wear, ensure my modesty.

"Faith is more essential than fashion, wouldn't you agree?

"This hijab,This mark of piety,

Is an act of faith, a symbol,

For all the world to see.

A simple cloth, to preserve her dignity.

So lift the veil from your heart to see the heart of purity.

They tell her, "Girl, don't you know this is the West and you are free?

You don't need to be oppressed, ashamed of your femininity.

"She just shakes her head and she speaks so assuredly,

"See the bill-boards and the magazines that line the check-out isles,

with their phony painted faces and their air-brushed smiles?

Well their sheer clothes and low cut gowns they are really not for me.

You call it freedom, and I call it anarchy.

"This hijab,This mark of piety,

Is an act of faith, a symbol,For all the world to see.

A simple cloth, to preserve her dignity.

So lift the veil from your heart to see the heart of purity.

Lift the veil from your heart and seek the heart of purity...

the pursuit of happyness

money cannot buy happiness
nor can power
happiness is just a thought away
deep down from the bottom of the heart
so choose to be happy
-anonymous

im so sleepy n feverish rite now. kak azy was warded in panti rapih last nite.n i had to attend to her.only managed to sleep over 2 proper hours where the rest is 'improper' just by putting my head on her ward bed, sleeping while sitting.i need rest but i need to study. when will i have time?the last jakarta trip jet lag still have not dimished fully.i need a massage.oh..i miss home